Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Facebook Makes Me Feel Like Poop

I love Facebook.  

I really do.

I love it because it lets me daily connect to and keep up 
with friends in my own town 
that I don't get to see or talk to every day. 

I love it because it has been a great way to reconnect 
with friends from my past and keep in contact with them.

I love it because it helps me to be able to specifically 
be able to pray for and minister to people who I wouldn't normally be able to. 

I love it because it just fun and 
a great way to relax at the end of the day.


But to be honest, there are sometimes that I do NOT love it. 

At all. 

Sometimes it makes me feel like
poop.


Big fat, unattractive, unaccomplished, unimpressive, ugly, stinky 
poop.

Sometimes on Facebook I look at the accomplishments of others 
at the pictures of others
at the relationships of others
at the physical beauty of others
at the good deeds of others
at the homes of others
at the families of others
at the experiences of others
at the hearts of others
at the jobs of others
and it makes me feel like I suck. 

Like what I do, who I am, how I live, where I live, how I look, 
is just not right and 
is just not enough. 

 I let it allow me to compare myself to others
 and find myself lacking in each and every single area.

I covet and compare and I realize that I don't measure up-
at all.

And sometimes I want to just wallow in that.
And sometimes, to be honest, I do.

But lately when I start feeling that way, 
I try to remind myself  of two things -
 that things are not always what they seem and
that God created me to live MY life


I know very well that those Facebook friends 
who seem to have the perfect life,
have their own struggles, their own problems, their own insecurities.
Because there is no perfect life this side of heaven. 


We only show people on FB and Twitter and our blogs the person 
we want people to see- 
not necessarily the one with flaws and problems and struggles.  
It's not that we are dishonest, just that we show only part of our life.


Just because we see only the pretty side of their life, 
that doesn't mean that there isn't another, less pretty, poopy side of their life. 


Instead of focusing on others and the fact that I suck compared to them,
here's what I try to remember:


He created ME, 
he loves ME,
 and called ME specifically and purposefully
 to live out my exact life-
not the life of someone else. 



And so on those days when Facebook makes me feel like poop,
instead of focusing on not being enough
I'm learning to focus on living the life God has blessed me with-
challenges, problems, insecurities, and all.



“This place where you are right now,
God circled on a map for you.”
~Hafiz (14th century poet)




13 comments:

  1. My Dear Sweet Friend,
    In the sweetest way I know to say this....You have lost your mind! : ) You are a WONDERFUL mother, wife, friend, daughter, sister, and woman. I know what you mean about FB, but I always tell my girls to not post negative things...that FB is for fun and for happiness. So, maybe those people are posting happy things to make others feel better. I, myself, do not like to see people whining or complaining on FB. I need FB to lift me up! : ) And that's JUST what you do for me, friend. You lift me up everytime I read something that you've posted. Something funny that Madison has said, or something creative that you've done. You are THE BOMB and I love you! (I even covet you sometimes! : )
    Love you!

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  2. Wonderfully honset post Shannon. And it's so true for most of us. Inadequate feelings abound in my life too. And yet the reminder that God made us who we are is so necessary. God bless you for the way you write and express yourself.

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  3. sometimes i think we were separated at birth...

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  4. Very honest post today and sometimes I think that we all think like that, but those of us that know each other know that the grass is not always greener. But we keep putting one foot in front of the other.

    Big hugs!

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  5. Insecurities are a part of life. I fight and struggle with mine every.single.day.

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  6. I never took you for the one that would struggle in that way. But I do so very much. I look around at my little place and the struggles I have and then I read others blogs and fb and I am one that covets them. Thank you for reminding me who I am.

    And btw, I love what Donna had to say. I second that.

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  7. I would think that most people feel that way at one time or another, especially with facebook- kind of like a high school reunion from your computer room!
    I third what Donna said

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  8. I regret ever joining FB because now I think it would be very hard to quit... I spent enough time on the computer before FB! And now, it is worse! :)

    I enjoy hearing about news from my hometown and catching up with old friends. I "hide" the people who are negative, gossipy, nosy, or just plain mean.

    When I think about all the things I could be doing instead of sitting here in front of the computer, I get mad at myself. For that reason, I dislike FB.

    I need to learn some self-discipline. :D
    Jen

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  9. *clicks the Like button* ;-)

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  10. Found you thru Pammer. Thanks for this.

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  11. Oh, Shannon. You have no idea how I've been struggling with this right now. I'm glad that I am not alone. Thank you for the reminder.

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