Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Wait, what? ~ Part 2


Wait, what? ~ Part 1

After the MRI I was in a funk.  The MRI made me sick and I spent the next few days super cranky and just not feeling good.  My sweet friend Betty invited me to come visit her for a few days so I left early on Sunday morning to drive to her lake house a few hours away.

{Betty is a precious friend - beautiful inside and out- and one of the most godly and wise women I have ever known.  She's not old enough to be my mama but she definitely is a mama-like influence in my life and I love her so. }

We spent Sunday just visiting and out on the lake- just relaxing and talking- which is exactly what I needed.  We planned to go shopping on Monday morning so after breakfast we both got ready to go.  While in the bathroom I had my phone charging in the bedroom.  When I returned to the bedroom I noticed a missed call and a voice mail message.  It was from my doctor and he said he would call me back.

And then I started to worry.

Because usually, the doctor doesn't call, the nurse does.

And usually, they just leave a message saying everything is fine.

We were driving down the road headed to shop when my phone rang.

Betty was on a business call but when I looked at the screen I knew I had to answer my phone because it was my doctor.

I love that he didn't beat around the bush and got right to it.

He said..... "The MRI showed something.  You have a tumor."

I didn't hear much after that.

I could tell he was focusing on repeating the words "slow growing" and "benign" but other than that his words were just a blur. Through my tears I motioned for Betty to find something to write on and something to write with and I wrote down the name of the tumor before getting off the phone.

While he talked I just kept thinking- a tumor? In my brain? The MRI was just a routine precaution.  It wasn't supposed to find anything.

Betty had gotten off the phone and pulled off the road into a parking lot. So after I hung up the phone we sat there crying in stunned silence.  Betty prayed for me and I thanked God for orchestrating that I was with her when I got the call. God is good and He knew I was going to fall apart- so He put me in a place where it was safe for me to do so.

And fall apart I did.

16 comments:

  1. Thinking of you, sweet Mama! Lots of prayers and sweet thoughts headed your way!

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  2. Best of luck and good wishes in your journey! I found out I had a spinal tumor and it was removed in February. You can do this!

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  3. Oh gosh! I was just printing some of your signs (first time visiting your blog), read yesterday's post, subscribed because I needed to find out what happened, and this one just popped up. Wishing you well and sending you prayers!

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  4. Prayers coming your way. God is in control.

    ✰Becca
    Simply 2nd Resources

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  5. I'm new to your cite but I will be praying for you.

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  6. Thinking of you. Love reading your blog.

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  7. You're in my prayers for God to carry you through this struggle. God is good...trust in him. Keep us updated, girlfriend!

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  8. This is the first time I've visted your blog. I found a link from Ann Voskamp's blog and just happened across your home page after downloading oodles of your great printables. I wanted to let you know that not even a year ago my husband finished his treatment for a stage 3 anaplastic astrocytoma and so far hes 100% clean. A brain tumor weather begnin or malignant is no laughing matter a begnin tumor can still grow and impede on the functions of your brain. My prayers go to you and your family and I beg always do research and if healthcare insurance allows second opinons. We opted to have a neurosurgeon who was out of out of network and we still were able to pull through 2012 with no debt and only living off of my husbands state disability he got while he wasn't working. God gives us Hope in the hard times and faith that it will all work the way He wants it to for the Glory of His Kingdom.

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  9. I'm so glad you were with your dear friend when you got this horrible news. I'm praying that you find God's peace and healing.

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  10. Thank you sweet friends for your prayers- I covet them so!

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  11. Tearing up for your low valley right now...just heard inspiring words from Gen. 49: 22, 23, 24. Tapping into the Living Water helps us scale the wall in our lives; God will make us still fruitful, though it seems so much is against us. If God is for us, who can be against us? Praying peace & healing for you :)

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  12. I've been following your blog and sharing many of your things with our ladies group. my son was stillborn 5 years ago and your words and your printouts have been very comforting at times.I will continue to pray for you, for your healing, and that God will be with your doctor's as they decide the best course of action for you.you have been such a blessing to others I know, and I'm sure there is so much more for you to do!

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  13. Continuing to think of you and praying for healing and peace.

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  14. You will come through this and be stronger than ever. I have faith in you and God.

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  15. I heard this song after attending the funeral of a former student who was 15 and it touched a part of me that really needed it at that moment. Maybe it will do the same for you. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eLqTZ07ja7g

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  16. Prayers and hugs your way!
    susanlulu@yahoo.com

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