A Shift

When I first started blogging {many moons ago}, I did so for myself. 

I blogged anonymously and other than a small handful of sweet friends 

who I made online, no one read my blog but me. 

And I was fine with that. 

I blogged often- almost daily, and used it as a journal 

to process things happening in my life and to remember 

some of the happy/sad/crazy things that went on on a daily basis 

and how God was working in my life. 

My blog was authentic and real and almost like therapy for me. 

I loved it. 

Fast forward 8 years, three different blogs, a bunch of readers 

{many friends from my real life}, 

a new job that keeps me super busy, and I blog less. 

Way, way, way less.

Happy/sad/crazy things still happen,

 God still does amazing things in my life, 

and yet I don't write about them very often- 

worrying that perhaps my readers don't care or that 

someone from my real life 

won't like being mentioned in a blog post. 

I think about posts way too much instead of just writing about life. 

I write for others instead of for me. 

Most posts are of things I've created- which although fun,

 isn't really a journal of anything but posters. 

And that makes me kind of sad. 

Something happened recently that made me realize that I need to 

start really blogging again about my life. 

My real, honest, non photo-shopped sometimes fabulous 

& sometimes messy life. 

The good and the bad.  

I'm embarking on a journey {more on that soon} 

that I know will not be easy or fun or painless 

but that I know, without a shadow of a doubt that God will use in good ways- 

regardless of the fact it's going to be yucky- and it simply must be documented. 

I know that in the months ahead I will need both the therapy of writing 

as well as the ability to look back and see God's hand 

as I travel through what no doubt will be a scary time in my life. 

So, if you visit here for my free printables or light hearted stories, 

please know I will still post them. 

{Because I love those kind of posts- they make me happy.}

But please also know that I also plan to share some the amazing things

 God is doing in my life as he walks me through a difficult time. 

Because I'm gonna need them to hold on to when I'm scared. 

And I can't wait to look back on them when this trial is over 

and be reminded of how good and faithful and true God is. 

Because He is good.  Oh so very good.