Tuesday, March 21, 2017

The Battle is NOT Yours

I'm a fixer by nature. 
If there's a problem and things seem out of control, I want to find a solution. 
ASAP. Stat. Immediately. 
And sometimes that is a good thing. 

Have a technology issue or task you are trying to accomplish? I'm your girl. 
Have a party you want to plan and need some creative, inexpensive ideas? I'm your girl. 
Have a care package you want to send and want some fun theme for it? I'm your girl. 

But other times, when the battle is NOT mine? 
It's not so good. 

2 Chronicles 20:15 says...
Be not afraid nor dismayed by reason of this great multitude; for the battle is not yours, but God's.

Many times I get frustrated trying to fix things (and people!) 
and fight battles that are not mine to fight. 
To meddle in things that God is working in and through. 
To allow Him to work in His mighty and powerful ways.  

I love this verse so because it's a beautiful reminder that Jesus has already won victory over EVERYTHING and ANYTHING that this life and world can throw at us.  
He has fought and WON against everything- 
marriage difficulties, financial struggles, cancer- EVERYTHING.  

Just like the verse above says, all we have to do is trust Him, take our positions, 
and stand firm in His promises, His plan, His almighty power.   

I made this little printable for a retreat this past weekend
 and I put one on my desk as a reminder to myself. 

If you'd like to print your own copy, you can get one in the folder HERE
I printed mine wallet size (9 per page) and they are perfect for the little army men. 

Friday, March 3, 2017

Forgiveness is Hard Y'all

Forgiveness is hard y'all. 
Super stinky hard.

It's often hard to forgive others when they have wronged us and wounded us- even when we know they didn't intentionally mean to hurt us. When we are wounded and weary forgiveness doesn't come easily or quickly. When someone hurts us it's easier to withdraw and pull away from them to to try to repair the trust and relationship. Often we have to just make the choice to forgive over and over and over again until we feel it.

But sometimes I think even harder than forgiving others-it's harder even to forgive ourselves. 
To forgive ourselves the way God repeatedly forgives us over and over and over again. 
To give ourselves grace and mercy just as we give grace and mercy to those we love.

We torment ourselves thinking about what we could have done, should have done
and although we know God forgives us, we can't (or won't) forgive ourselves. 
I think for me it often boils down to the fact that it's the unrealistic expectations 
I have of myself and put on myself that is at the root of this inability to forgive myself. 
I want to believe that I am better than I am- but the reality is, I'm not. 
I am a sinful, imperfect mess that is saved only by the grace and mercy of Christ.