Sunday, May 27, 2012

Sweetest Proposal EVER!

Seriously? 
How cute is this?

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

A Super List of Randomness

1. There are only 7 more days of school. 
SEVEN!

2. Just downloaded this cool new app- FaceDialer
It allows you to make picture icons for those people you text or call often! 
It's so stinkin' cool! I now have a page full of my super cute family and friends! 

3. LOVE this video!

4. Just finished reading this book for my book club
and it was super interesting! Love that it is a true story!

Now we are reading this book
and it's also fabulous! I can't wait to finish it and watch the movie! 

5.  I am in charge of providing gift baskets for some ladies 
that will be attending a retreat this summer.  
This is a special retreat for ladies who suffered a horrible tragedy- 
each has lost a child. 
(You can find information on the retreat here:http://www.haven-of-hope.com/category/retreat/)   
The ministry, Haven of Hope, was started by a dear friend of mine, Susan, 
whose  two children and her father died in a horrible accident back in 2002.  
She has turned her tragedy into helping others who have lost children and 
this retreat is an amazing way that she ministers to them.  
I am in charge of creating gift baskets for each of the sweet ladies who attend 
and I have had so much fun coming up with ideas for them! 
I've asked for and received some amazing donations 
{which I'll share as the date gets closer}! People are so kind!
{And if you have an idea of a business or person who might like to 
donate for the baskets, please let me know!}

6. I had heard people talk about Downton Abbey and never really thought much of it because I didn't think I'd like it.  Well a few weeks ago I decided to watch an episode on Netflix and I was immediately hooked! It is fabulous- such great characters, witty dialogue, fabulous story lines, and beautiful scenery and clothing.
 If you've never seen it- you must check it out- it is fabulous!!

         


7. Have I mentioned that there are only SEVEN days of school left?
Yep...SEVEN!

8. I've got a new job for next year and am SO excited about it!
I've been interviewing teachers for the past few weeks for a technology facilitator position on each campus in our district and today I had to tell those who didn't get the position at their campus. 
And y'all it was hard. Hard hard. 
Because I know these people wanted the position and many are my friends. 
:(

9. I heard this song at Madison's dance recital on Sunday 
and I just love love love it! 
I'm not a big hip hop music fan but I love the chorus of this song! 

10. Got this fortune the other day at lunch and it cracked me up!
Agree or disagree?




Monday, May 14, 2012

In Case of a Diet Coke Emergency

Need a fun way to give a gift card to a fellow Sonic drinker? 
Well here you go! 

Just print out this little sign, tape on a gift card 
and pop it in a cheap frame 
(I got this one for $1 at Ikea)
and it's a ready made fun gift! 

{And as always if you'd like it in a different color or with a different drink name,
 just let me know and I'll make it for you!}

Check out the comments below to links to other versions!
In Case of Emergency

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Why I Hate Mother's Day

Anyone that knows me knows I am a holiday girl. 
I LOVE all holidays!
All except one......Mother's Day.

To be honest, I hate Mother's Day.
Yes...I truly HATE it. 

Every year I dread May and all the sweet commercials about mothers. 
Every year I say something about hating Mother's Day and my sweet friends immediately start saying things about how I should love it 
because I am a mother and it's a day to honor me. 

And to some extent they are right- 
I am a mother and absolutely LOVE being Madison's mom. 
I spent many years and lots of money and countless nights on my knees 
praying to become a mother and I love being Madison's mom. 

But here's the thing........
Mother's Day is a day to honor your mother. 

And my mother isn't here. 

The void left by that amazing woman-
the strongest, kindest, most loving woman I have ever known is huge.
I miss her every single solitary day with every single fiber of my being. 


Sometimes I feel the pain of her absence so strongly, 
so deeply that I feel that it will overtake me. 



I so often think of all the stories I never got to hear her tell, the trips we never got to take, the conversations we never got to have, the memories we never got to make, the projects we never got to do, the meals we never got to make, the holidays we never got to share, all the lessons she never got to teach me, the laughs and tears we never got to share and I feel so cheated. 

I so often think of all the amazing things about her and 
all that was lost when she died. 
The world was truly a better place with her in it. 
My world was a better place with her in it. 
And it sucks that the world no longer has her. 
That I no longer have my biggest cheerleader and most amazing 
role model, comforter, and protector. 
And to be honest sometimes it makes me angry. 


I so often think that I was robbed of such an amazing mother. 
I was not prepared or ready at the age of 32 to lose my mother- 
not that you ever are.
I wasn't done growing up, I wasn't done needing her, 
I wasn't done being taught by her, 
I wasn't done loving her and being loved by her.


Every single time I watch Maddie dance I cry because my mom never got to see her dance and I know how much she would have absolutely loved it. 
She never got to truly know the girl that is 
my beautiful, amazing, precious, funny daughter.
Although she has memories of my mother and pictures of her and 
we try hard to tell her stories and all the wonderful things about my mother, 
she does not truly know the wonderful woman that was her Nana. 
And I hate, hate, hate that. 

So please forgive me if hate this holiday. 
I'm sorry but being reminded of the huge void left by amazing mother
 is not something I can celebrate. 

I'll spend much of the day in tears wishing I had
 just another minute with my sweet mama. 
Just one more hug. 
One more time to hold her hand. 
One more time to hear her voice. 
Please forgive me for that and please understand 
and not try to convince me to feel otherwise. 

And if you are still lucky enough to have your sweet mama, 
please please please treasure every moment you are blessed to have her. 
Because sadly one day, you too will hate Mother's Day.